Sharing

Peoples alway said “sharing is Caring”. Definitely I am quite happy to share all those best things with other. Whereas, one thing that I do not think that I will going to share with other even 1%. Did you know what thing that I mean above? That is “Love”. Exactly, I know that majority of you will agree what I am talking about. 

Since I had experienced one time and hence I do not want it to happen again in my life hereafter.  U know such kind of feeling? Sometime I am rather to discard if I could not fully to possess.  Yes, this is my final decision. I will not keep going to step back in the mistake. I am quite.

**DaY**

Initially, I am afraid the “day” coming because in am full of panic and helpless. I do not know who I can talk to or who I can share.  That is a terrible nightmare which has been surrounding me since so long ago.  At the mean time, it is also become a secret which I could not let people know. Sometime I wish cross over to it soon but sometime I also try to avoid. Whereas now, no choice, it is coming. 

 This day, I can get the answer to break through my nightmare or another said let it follow me forever. I hope everything that I worry is just an addendum.  I do not want it follow me hereafter.  I hope I can get some help from god.  Now, I only can attempt to live like usual without thinking so much.  i have to brave and confidence  enough once I get the answer. I will live with strong even the answer is good or bad. 

Contract

People told me you are very lucky because you could get the contract during your internship period. However, sometime I was confused on the point, I did not know, is it to sign the one year contract would bring along the advantage for me or is not a cornerstone for me to start my career?

I am not sure what is going on in the next half year while I am finishing my contract. Will I get the permanent offer or they just want to utilize me on this year. By the way, I also do not know is that good for me to work on my current job/ department? Exactly, there have a lot of question mark in my mind. 

Even I can kick off to get intern salary but apparently my responsibility, pressure and tasks are seemed like increased day after day. Sometime I even think to give up and fed up because some of my friend told me that was not worth for me to work like a cow. I work more than 10 hours per day and it could be no life on weekday, everyday get back to home around 10-11pm. really dislike on this kind of life. 

I got a lot of motivation initially because I though those of my effort might get back the equal compensation. Now, my motivation seem like drop down to another level because I fell that I was stand on an unsecure position and which is not worth for me to pay off all my energy and effort. Haiz ..

I had contributed my internship in Citibank around two month since 20 dec 2010. By right, I am going to have another 2 months to finish my internship program. I did not have expected that I would became a banker while I am a student due to the course that I taken in university is not based on banking line and I was not too interested about banking line.

Maybe that is my fate that god arranged for me to part my first job in banking field. I was worry and not possess full of confidence at all before I was started my first day in Citibank because I did not have any of the banking knowledge and I not sure which department that they would send me to. 

Eventually they were part me to Operation and Technology Department – Account Service Unit which is handle and operation about commercial and corporate customer account. Initially, I was doing those basic admin works and I could break myself from office on time everyday. But my tasks were going to increase day to day and now I have to work around 8pm everyday. However, I did not have grumble on that because I am willing to that and I hope there is the solely way for me to learn more since I know that I am still freaking fresh.

 

One thing that I have to appreciate is that my supervisor  and college is treat and teach me as good as they can and I am very enjoy my department environment. I hope I can learn more knowledge in the coming 2 months so that I can get the headway before I get my certificate. 

Men’s second life cycle episode 1

Working life….Yes definitely I have been enjoyed and suffer it since one month ago, on the other hand it more apt to describe should be I had left my student and study life already one month. I am quite missing those splendid university lives that I had gone through with my monster gang. I was fully appreciated that I could met you all in UUM even though I realize that there are just a piece of leaf pass through my eye, whereas  all of your shadow have been print into the deeply place for my heart that is one point that I can’t denying. 

>>>KL>>>Setapak>>>Wagsa Maju>>>..Oh yeah---you guess it, there is another wonderful place that I accommodating now.    “WONDERFUL”…..why…..???

Keep up your question mark first and let me answer for you. Here got a good view to KL city, got a convenience LRT station which easy for me go my office, got a lot of delicious foods yet the price is acceptable than UUM as well as my hometown, last and most important is swimming pool is always standby for me 24 hours..wohoho..   

Hereby, I need to thanks my best friends who are assisted me to search out this room and coincide is that I am live together with them inside a house. But there is also couple with a sadness point that I hide off is they are going to move in next week due to they have been finish their education as me. I will live with other unfamiliar housemate hereafter that kind of life sure hundred percent can define as everyday dinner alone, yum cha alone, sport aloneL. Never mind, I am environment fighter and I like to taste different type living style..hehe… hope I can enjoy my single life soon.

Is it a reasonable price for a small room in KL, exactly I can get the answer of Yes for those who have been here before because the living standard in KL is really high than other area. Although my room is really small that I never experience but it still enough for a bachelor and there are no reason for me to put any comment. Just the way that I don’t like is my housemate is extremely a good salted fish seller the smell Is terrible and totally unacceptable at all, you can come over and taste it if you are not believe what I say :P 

 

                                          BENSON ALPHA CONDO’s ROOM

离别的泪

在这世界上，不管多强悍与坚强的人内心里都会存有自己脆弱及伤感的时候。而离别往往就是导致人类伤感和脆弱的催化剂。　开始进入最后学期的尾声，　每天都告诉自己说离别的那一刻不要这么快到来。。因为我真的舍不得大家，舍不得你们每一个人和这里的一切。

茫茫人海当中我们来到了这里，　当中的我们都是来自于不同洲属，　不同地区，讲的是不同籍贯的语言，曾经过的也是不同的生活法式。　可是命运之神却用缘分这玩意儿把我们牢牢地绑在一起，　在没有家人的陪同与照顾下我们就这样一起生活了三年半。　在这期间里我们互相扶持从没离开过彼此---------　我们一起玩乐，　欢笑，　难过，　努力。这当中的回忆真的难以用单纯的言语和笔墨来形容。　

如果我能回到小时候童话故事里的情节向神灯许一个愿的话，　想信我会毫不犹豫地告诉神灯说　“你能不能在给我回忆多一次我在大学的生活，　让我在回味多一次那美丽的回忆。

曾经看着朋友在离别和毕业的时候都会留着眼泪一间一间房去和老友道别。。拥抱。。自己在心里想说以后我走的那一刻应该不会像学长们那样感性的哭。 谁知当这一刻到来的时候我的内心感触竟然和之前心里想的完全不一样。 这一天我的眼门就像被一把叫做“离别”的钥匙给打开了，被冰封在我眼里已久的泪珠就像被解放的野狼狂奔的飙了出来。这也是我上了大学之后第一次也是最后一次掉的男儿泪。

从昨晚到今早送了很多为好友，三年半里的感触和回忆也瞬时的涌入脑中。当和好友拥抱道别的最后一刻眼眶就已开始泛红，走过味道熟悉的几栋宿舍，通过几条有我们过去影子的通道来到时常埋怨的Petro Café看着朋友手中的电话断断续续的播着我们这几年所拍的录影时------我不自觉地和几位朋友哭了起来。。 也许，　人类真的要等到失去的时候才会知道一样东西对你的重要性和在你心目中的分量。　

虽然有朋友强忍着泪水安慰着说离别只是一个人生必经的过程，我们都已长大了， 应该往正面的方向去想而不是只留在过去的回忆。  但无可否认的，人类本来就是感性的动物再加上想起一些住在远距离的朋友可能以后再也不会有多少次能够相聚的机会---所以才会有如此深的感触。

  还记得三年半前的我带着理想 傻傻的从南部搭了十二个小时的巴士来到这里， 一个人也不认识的进了一个叫”Petronas” 的宿舍， 当时的我真的感觉很陌生很无助。辛好我很意外与有辛的认识了你们就这样我们大家跌跌撞撞的在北大混了三年半。

今日的离别不知何日再聚，但希望你们每个人都能成功， 健康， 快乐。我会把你们的样子都记在我心里最深最深的那一处。。 前方的路还有很长要走。。但希望大家不会忘了彼此，忘了我们曾有过的美好回忆。 在没有大家的陪同与照顾下也希望你们依然能走得一样的潇洒。。精彩。。。。

~An Intangible Dream~

He never ever thinks that he will continue his learning life after secondary school,

He never ever thinks that he cans success to enter a local University,

He never ever thinks that he will become an undergraduate,

He never ever thinks that there is possible for his to become a white collar instead of blue collar,

He never ever thinks that university’s campus can has a huge effect on his future,

All the life in university are look like far from his and infinitely intangible and unreality.  By the way, he never attempted to thought about his evolve study life while he was a boy.

Formerly,

He was just a Kampung boy, a gangster, a motor racing driver, a part time grocery worker.Of course, he was always located at last class in his secondary school period.

He seem like the person who did not have any direction on his future, and his mother often told to him

“You must wallow yourself until SPM, after that I do not care you want work whatever job you want in Singapore”

But now, he has been progressing to alter the intangible dream to a tangible and reality fact.

He is almost to finish his University life,          

He just left 6 days more in UUM,

He just left 2 more exam papers to go.

Here,

He had met a lot of good friends and joined a lot of activities and obtained many of the experiences in term of national and international especially debate competition. One of the proud of his is success to get the dean certificate on each semester and couple with activities and competitions achievement.

From now,

He could able to alter the perception of peoples look on him especially those kampung’s 38 aunties and uncles as well as relatives. He has strong than previously and he will get his qualification soon. At the meantime, he is just thinking how to start his onward working lifecycle and how to have a good performance on his working life.